Get Low #humility

I recently just came back from my last spiritual retreat with GAC. Although it was bitter sweet, I am so happy God has blessed me these past four years with an amazing experience at the FFA center and being able to be a small group leader.

The main theme for me this week was I am not, but I know I am, which is ironic because I am reading that book right now. I realized I have pride and I have secrets that consume my life and those secrets are baggage that ruins your life. The question what does God think of you was asked to me this week and I have yet to figure it out, but two of my answers were, you are worthy and you are his. God deeply loves us and wants us to jump into his plan with out knowing how to swim, we cant be afraid. We can't let the fear of striking keep us from playing the game because we know that he is always with us! The last session I learned that we need to ourself as God sees us. He created us and loves us and went through Hell to save us! I realized that through Jason's story that my mom truly does love me and even though we do not always get along, she is always there supporting me and loving me with all the love she has and I really ned to respect her more. Also, I need to receive God's love the only way I change myself is seeing myself the way God does, and the first step is receiving his grace and love.

During the freshman/sophomore retreat I was a group leader for a group of sophomore girls and it was amazing!! The first night we all opened up and told each other the hardships we had gone through and they stuff we were suffering through and it was truly amazing to God at work in their lives. We all have a secret and a story and we never know what people have gone through or are going through. One thing that God told me to tell my small group is "You are a beautiful daughter of the KING and he gave you WORTH and you have intrinsic VALUE and God believed you are WORHTY enough to send his son to DIE on the cross and SAVE us from our sins, because he WANTS YOU more than anything else on this planet!!!"

It was a great week full of God's spirit moving and changing lives in the student body. God lead me to be a leader through the summer and continuously told me I want you to lead the student body, but through this retreat he humbled me and told me leading isn't being in the center. I felt as though God was calling me to be a leader during worship and during the first night I worshipped in the front and then the rest of the times of worship I worshipped in the back and felt over joyed and felt more of God's presence in the back than in the front and I realized God didn't want me to lead front and center.

This retreat being my last retreat ever, I can not express how blessed I feel, being able to lead students and worship a fantastic God. I will probably never go on another retreat this powerful and just being able to grow in my spiritual walk is awesome!!


Wisdom:

Humility is not thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less
receive love. love god. love people.
we want to be gods, but we aren't
i am not but i know I AM
let go let GOD