This year on my phone I made a list of things i accomplished or did this year, and I am reflecting on what I did in 2012, over all it was a very blessed year, but there was also sadness.

UPS:

1) England
2) Made Varsity
3) Passion- White Flag
4) Region Camp- made a pool game
5) Passion Good Friday Concert
6) Toms no shoes day at school
7) won high school state championship
8) won Tophat state championship
9) got a car and a license!
10) read have a little faith by Mitch Albom- best book ever read by an amazing author!
11) Luke Bryan Jason Aldean concert- two of my top favorite country artists
12) Winter jam with mom and savannah
13) mother daughter date nights and late night chats
14) Got my offers from Furman and Samford
15) father daughter date nights and late night yogurt trips
16) region camp!!
17) San Diego- Surf Cup!
18) Mom and daughter trip to georgia southern and Mercer
19) went on my first date
20) spoke at the SALT meeting and designed the tshirts
21) chapel class
22) beat the seniors at powder puff played quarter back!
23) won SPL! #regionalsbound #oklahomacity
24) great family time over christmas and new years!
25) Elena is CANCER FREE!
26) served at scottish rite during christmas
27) 7 Bridges over thanksgiving- fell in love with that place!

DOWNS:
1) Mr Rick died
2) did not play alot on varsity soccer
3) Mr Dravis died
4) Mr. Buda died
5) Robby
6) Dr. Ray
7) Coach B's son

At least the list of positives are better than the list of negatives! but still praying for those families that lost loved ones around the holidays, now every holiday season will be a hard one! Especially the Dravis family with two kids younger than me, it hurts my heart. over all a great year with family and friends! can't wait for 2013 and what it has to bring along with the start of senior year! <3

Reflecting on My Life

It has been a while since I have blogged. I actually do enjoy blogging but yet again time is everything. A couple months ago I made a list of goals I would have for the new school year. These goals were created due to a retreat I went on during the summer.

Goals:

1. all in care and love

                the goal of the retreat was all in, then one day at our SALT meeting we found out that the school goal was ALL IN! and it hit me if I wanna be living in the light I need to be all in in everything I do. not 50% not 30% not 75% but 100%. If I loved every single person or cared for every single person 100% my life would be more fulfilled, more joy, more satisfaction, more love, and better friendships

    2. ask really how you are

               A lot of the time I ask how are you when I see someone, but it isn't because I care it's because that was the culture I was raised in. I don't really care how the person is, it doesn't matter to me, but how selfish is that? I need to learn to open up, actually find out what is going on in the lives of the people around me.

   3. open myself up be vulnerable, that was the point of the cross † open armed hug, just like 7 bridges

           if I open myself up and let others see the hurt, the pain, and everything inside me people are more likely to open up themselves to me. they are more likely to tell me what is going on in their life, they will ask for prayers and help, and that is what I am here for, yes I have problems of my own, but I am more towards helping people than helping myself, because with in helping people I learn to help myself

   4. trust other more

         wow! this is a big one. trusting others. it is hard to trust. I have been let down so many times and lied to so many times that it is really hard for me to trust people. I am beginning to let go of my past and I am starting to trust people more. I want to trust people, but once trust is broken it is hard to gain it back. Just like with your parents and going out and driving, once you lie to them and they find out about it that leash gets smaller and smaller and the trust is now broken, and once trust is broken its hard to gain it back

    5. we are human, forgive one another

             this kind of goes hand and hand with trusting people, if you loose trust, forgive them but it doesn't mean you have to trust them again. the verse Jesus said on the cross was forgive them, for they are human. WE ARE HUMAN! WE MAKE MISTAKES! no one lives a perfect life, I for sure do not live a perfect life. and God forgave me, so shouldn't I in turn be like God and forgive those around me when the sin against me? but yet why is it so difficult?

   6. feed the church, one body many parts

     

            I have a role to play in my church, in my school, in my community, on my team, etc.. but yet how do I fulfill that role in every area if I only have time for one thing? Take my team for instance, I seem to always be out of town or playing soccer when it is time for Church, but what can I do about that but quit soccer? How do I fulfill the role in my church, when I an hardly there? How do I serve my community and hang out with my neighbors and be a light when I never can? One of my friends told me if you make time for God and Jesus he will make time for everything else.

Those were my goals at the beginning of the year, do you want to know how many of those I accomplished? Maybe one, well I guess its 2013 and time to start a new year with new people. These are the goals for this year.

1) Put in the effort to make time for your friends, and maybe in return they will make time for you

2) Commit to a school that you love and want to play soccer at!

3)be open, trust and forgive others

4) spend time in the word everyday even if it is just my daily devo of Jesus Calling(thank you mom and dad)

5) pray for one specific person everyday(probs wont happen, maybe once a week)

6) find God in something everyday (probably wont happen either, but I will try!) and it can be silly like the food you eat, but find God and know he is out there!