Sunday, March 24, 2013

Worry #SGA3


Keep a journal of things you worry about through out the course of a day. Spend each night before you go to bed asking God to give you a peaceful heart. Do not ask God to take away the things that worry you, but instead, ask God to teach you to trust him with the things that cause you anxiety. Do this everyday for a week.

Through out my week I have been reading Matthew 6:25-34. In my bible there is a little heading that says Seven Reasons not to Worry and then it gives a reason and a verse from that section in Matthew to support it

Day 1:
I realized I worry a lot about what people think of me. I base most of my decisions on what people think of me rather than what I want for myself. I ask myself many questions through out the day on how I like, or what is that person thinking or saying about me. My life is centered around the opinions of others rather than the opinion of God. I realized this is not how I want to live my life and I started looking up ways to try to stop yourself from thinking about other people’s opinions
1.     Stop overthinking
2.     Put things into perspective
3.     Be confident- one thing I am lacking self-confidence
4.     Control your emotion- another thing hard to do as a girl
5.     Love who you are- so hard to do based on the society around where if you aren’t tan or skinny or blonde or straight haired or curly haired or tall or short, whatever you is not acceptable
·      One thing to help increase your love for your self is everyday write down 5 things about yourself that you appreciate about yourself, that makes you you, or makes you someone special
6.     Stop apologizing- I apologize for everything even if it isn’t my fault
7.     Do things because they matter to you “reclaim your identity”
8.     You notice your flaws more than anyone else
9.     Forgive yourself
Then I read a couple of verses about what God wants for you
            Gal 1:10- obviously I am not trying to win the approval of people but of God. If pleasing people were my goal I would not be Christ’s servant
            Phil 2:7- instead he gave up his divine privileges, he took the humble position of a slave and was born a human being
            Phil 2:3- don’t be selfish; don’t try to impress others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourselves
            1 Peter 5:7- give all your worries to God, for he cares about you
            John 16:33- I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. Bu take heart I have overcome the world.
            Proverbs 12:25- worry weighs a person down, but an encouraging word can cheer someone up
            1 Samuel 16:7- Don’t judge by hi appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn’t see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance but the Lord looks at the Heart

Day 2:
            My worry was a concern for a friend who is going through some life changes. The friend has made some bad decisions in their life and I believe they really want to change but they are having trouble due to the friends they have. I believe if they had better friends they would be able to do it. But help me lead them to the Lord and hopefully they will turn their life around.

Day 3:
            I struggle a lot with meeting the expectations of my parents some worries I had today were
·      Not being good enough
·      Never making the expectations
·      Not being able to do my best
·      Being unsuccessful
·      Not being in good enough shape
·      Not being who my parents want me to be or perceive me to be
·      Not having enough money
·      Not going to college
·      Getting my heartbroken

I try to hold it all together all the time for everyone and most of the time I can. I try to be that friend that people can cry on their shoulder or come to me when they need advice or if something is wrong. But lately I haven’t not been able to handle it well, and I have been the person going to cry on someone else’s shoulder. I need God to give me peace and strength

Day 4:
            Again praying for my friend

Day 5:
            I worry about not having enough time to do everything or not studying enough, when ever I think about Time I always think back to Ecclesiastes chapter 3 where it talks about there being a time for everything.

Day 6:
            One of my main challenges is trust because I have been lied to so often, I never believe what people say. I trust people too soon and sometimes not at all, but once your break my trust you will never get it back because I have had such a rough past with it. I love to trust people and be able to trust people but it breaks my heart when my trust is broken, it makes me think what else did they lie about, or say about, or just anything that makes me think twice about you. I ask God to grant me someone to trust again, to reach out of y comfort zone and trust people again.

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Sometimes you just gotta blog

Today is one of those days where you just have to express what is going on in your head. As I landed today getting home from Texas I read a tweet of one of the girl's on my team and it said "there is no way you can't believe in God when looking out a plane window". But how true is that? How simple and beautiful is the world around me and I don't even notice what amazing things I have that God has given me.

I was looking through old instagram pictures and I found one of Elena and I at the hospital. Elena is now 100% cancer free and 100% donor cells, but as I think back to the process she went through I truly believe that when a miracle like her survives, you have to believe in a God. It may not be the God I believe in but you have to give credit to someone or something.

One of the chaperones on our trip this weekend lost a daughter to cancer and she has started an organization that helps raise money to bring happiness to the cancer patients in the Aflac centers. As we were walking back from the van this morning to the hotel, she received a text from her husband saying all the rooms are full. The foundation delivers donuts to the Aflac center every Sunday for the families. When she said this it made me realize how blessed I am that I dont live in a hospital 24/7, that I am healthy and well, that I have a family that loves me and supports me, that I have the talent of playing soccer and I am using it to share the love of God. Knowing that in one second my life can be changed forever I really need to view life from the perspective of what if in the next moment something happens, how would I change what already happened?

As I blog tonight I need to be thankful for all the time God has given me here on earth, I do not know how much longer or the amount of time I have left will be, but I need to make every second count. As I know where I will be going to college and I know that I will be leaving my family soon it makes me sad, I need to remember to cherish this next year and remember how truly blessed I am with the family and friends I have.

Here is an update:
I have committed to a school! can't wait to go!!
We came in 3rd in nationals this weekend!! really a great accomplishment!
I have been in a low spot in my relationship with God lately and feel like I am going through the motions

My prayer:
God will grant me patience to deal with my parents and not become upset, to revive me, and to be more thankful for the situations I am put in and the things I accomplish

Wisdom:
Sometimes I get too caught up in the world around me the recognize the beauty God has set before. My life needs to be filled with things that I will cherish and that will last forever, not earthly things but the thankfulness, grace, and mercy of the Father. The blessing he has given me is the life I am living right now and one day it will be taken from me and when it is I want that reward to be everlasting.
#Godis #BEAUTY #THANKFUL