It's so Unfair

           As I read blog after blog and caringbridge after caringbridge it just seems so unreal that all these people have been diagnosed with/conquered/died of/ cancer. I think about everything I go through in a day like sitting in traffic, being late to a meeting, forgetting to eat lunch then complaining about it, not being able to hang out with friends, my phone not working, and just wasting my time watching tv. I realize this is nothing compared to that of cancer patients. One of my dear friends who is a couple of years younger than me is going through Leukemia and it amazes me how strong she is! She is an inspiration to me. As a read their blog I stand amazed at what she goes through everyday. She wakes up at 5:30 in the morning and has radiation then she comes back to her room and has to take meds and then she goes to sleep then she wakes up has to eat crappy cafeteria food and then takes more meds and has to walk 10+ laps around the BMT unit. Then she goes back to radiation. After radiation, she comes back to her room and tries to go to sleep but she wakes up in the middle of the night nauseous and then pukes. She has sores all over her mouth. Within her daily jobs she has to rinse her mouth 5 times and do other little stuff to take care of her body and keep herself from becoming sick. As I read all of these pages I often see, IT’S SO UNFAIR. I realize that yes it is unfair, even I say that and I do not even have cancer. Why do I get cancer but he/she does not? Why, Why, Why? Was there a way to prevent this? What do I do now?

         Life is unfair, but what we do not look at is the positive of every situation. When we find out bad news, it makes us angry and most of the time we take our anger out on God or the others around us.  We need to know that becoming angering is a sin. In Psalm 37:7 it says, “Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes”. The Lord does not want us to be angry and he does not want to think life is unfair, even though sometimes we think it is. Life is not fair that God had to sacrifice his one and only son because we sinned. How unfair is that? We all desereved hell and nothing better but God sacrificed for us because he loves us that much. So when we look at our lives we really need a reality check and say, “Yeah it isn’t fair but neither was the choice God made for us.” We need to suck it up and look to God for answers instead of complaining.

         When we look at everything going on in our lives we need to realize there is a bigger picture than what we see. God sees the whole picture and our whole life. We can only see parts of it and sometimes we are so blinded by the world that we do not see any of the plans God has for us. We need to pray and open up to God and say it is okay and let God handle our unfairness and our anger.